Maybe I'll Just

So Halloween is coming up soon, and that's pretty exciting.
What's that? You want to hear my plans? Okay.
Me and my cute boyfriend are gonna sit our butts on my couch, eat pounds of candy, and watch scary movies, until we either pee our pants or fall asleep. It's pretty much gonna be one rager of a party.
But guess what? It's not Halloween yet. So I can talk about whatever I want to. I mean, this is my blog, so I can do that anyway.
So instead, I am going to talk about how AWESOME IT IS THAT STARTING JANUARY 1ST FRIENDS IS GONNA BE ON NETFLIX

OH MY GOSH MY LIFE IS COMPLETE

Freak. I am so excited.

But, I feel as though this topic deserves it's own blog post. Except, I'm just going to not do that.

FRIENDS is possibly my favorite tv show, like, ever. But not really, cause there's New Girl and That 70's Show and How I met Your Mother and The Office and Pokemon and all those other ones that are just awesome.

I don't know how to end this post...

Okay...
Okay bye.

a New Phone.. Again.

I am in need of a new phone once again.

Mine has decided to stop working. It won't send texts unless I restart it, and then it'll only send them for about an hour. Then I have to restart it again.

So if, you know, anyone wants to give me a free phone, that would be pretty cool.

Hello

my phone screen is cracked and it's a bad day

I slept in today. As well as a few days last week. I am just sleeping a lot lately. Which, I don't know why, cause I kinda don't like sleeping. I mean, I like how I can forget about everything going on around and just sleep.

And when I wake up, that few seconds before the world starts crashing down on me again and I remember every heavy thing life brings me? That is the best few seconds of the day.

Wow. I like that. I think I'll put it in a song.

But I don't like dreaming. Because the last few ones I've had have been nightmares. Nightmares full of dying and tears and pain.
So that's been fun.

Because I've been sleeping a lot (more than I'd like to), I've fallen behind in my classes. I am actually currently working on my math homework. Well, I mean, I'm sitting here, on my bed, blogging. But really, I am just taking a break from my millions of math assignments to de-stress and blog.
The silly thing is, I don't even know if I will be able to turn in these math assignments, cause the teacher doesn't allow late work. But she might allow mine. I don't know, it's kind of a long story. A long story that I don't want to share. So.. That's a thing.

I know, I know. You're probably reading this thinking something along the lines of "Why are you blogging? You should be doing your millions of math assignments and psychology assignments!"
I KNOW STAHP TELLING ME HOW TO LIVE MAH LIEF!

I just want to sit here and listen to sad music, cause it's a bad day.

Conference weekend is my favorite weekend.

In other news, I went to the ER last night! It was really quite exciting. And, I mean, I'm alive. So they did their job. So that's good.

And, I mean, it took for forever. Considering it was 3:00 am and the place was dead (ell oh ell), I think they could have done better, time wise.

My chest still hurts like a baby stubbing it's toe for the first time, but it's not anything like it was at 2:30 this morning. Oh my word. It was so bad.


Alright. So. I have this problem called I miss some people that I should not miss. Ugh. I hate that feeling. Missing someone who you shouldn't miss. Because, it's all, I hate you.. And I don't want to miss you. And I don't want to give you the satisfaction of me thinking about you. But at the same time, all I want to do is call you and see you and talk to you.

And then, I remember that I have the cutest, nicest, most amazing boyfriend. And I think "Wow, do I need anyone else in my life?"
And the answer to that would be no. No I do not. Especially not the person I missed a few sentences ago, you turd.
Turd face.

I wish I were a Flower

I should be studying. I really should be. Or I should be doing my math assignment for the day. But the real question is,
am I going to?

No.
No I am not.

Instead, I am going to blog about flowers.

I was recently asked about my favorite kind of flower. And, oh my gosh, that's almost as hard as my favorite type of music.

FREAK.

I love flowers. I love them. Absolutely love them.
The look.
The smell.
The feel.
I love white flowers the best, probably. White roses. White Daisies. White whatever these are



But I also really like yellow flowers. Like sunflowers. I absolutely love sunflowers.



The only flower that I actually don't like (only cause they're colored unnaturally) are these flowers that, I think, are called gerber daisies. These ones



And even those I love, because they're still flowers. And flowers are beautiful.

I wish I was a flower. Everyone loves flowers.

Flowers make people happy.
Flowers make people smile.

Flowers make me feel at peace.

I want to bring that to people.


And, I mean, just look

in my Eyes

I really want to blog. But I honestly have nothing to blog about. Except Brennan. So, that's what I'm going to do.

Get ready for some cheesy crap.

Brennan is, as you know, my current boyfriend. And he is absolutely amazing.

As a lot of you know, and as the rest of you will learn in about .6 seconds, I have gone through quite a bit for someone my age. And yeah, it sucks. But I'm also grateful it happened. But that's beside the point. The point is,
Brennan sees this.

Brennan sees that I've been through a lot. And he sees that, through his eyes at least, I deserve to be treated so much better than I have been in the past.

He treats me like a princess.
I've never really been treated like a princess by someone like that before, someone who wasn't a family member.
And I love it.

He treats me like I deserve the world. And even if I don't think that's true, he does. And he simply acts upon that thought.

Brennan is Amazing. Brennan is life. Brennan is perfection.


At least, he is in my eyes.

3 days till I see you B. 3 days.